Hello JD
Long time no write. . . Ive recently repossessed my old Jornals. The ones where I would put pen to paper. I miss writing... My life feels like it's missing something... I have the job I've always wanted. I shape young minds... I love what I do... I may not be rich but I am rich in laughs and love from these tiny humans and I cant imagine doing anything else... I've continued to volunteer for Relay for Life every year in memory of Ranee and I recently joined the Pasadena Jaycees. The Jaycees help me with my volunteer fix. Lol. Volunteering makes me feel good, which has helped me fill in some of the void... But I still feel it... That void. That emptiness... I don't know if its because I am about to have another birthday and I have yet to meet someone that makes me feel alive and special or because I feel like Im not doing enough with my life... It might be both. So far I've met men that are emotionally unavailable... I feel like I may be internally seeking them out... Lol. Do i really want to put my heart back out there? Do I want to risk the pain? A part of me does... A big part... Ive learned alot from the 3 boyfriends and 1 fiance I've had the pleasure of creating memories with... Albeit not all good... Lol... I feel hopeless... I've never been good with meeting men. It doesn't help that I work in an industry that is run mostly by women... But even then Ive always been awkward when it comes to men. I wish I had more confidence in myself. I guess thats where I have to start.... Building my confidence.
1. Build your confidence.
How do I do that?
