Hey JD,
So I may be in the middle of a mid-life crisis...
I wish people would stop telling me I'm still young... Or ...You're too young to be worrying about *-fill in the blank-*...
My anxiety has been on high this month... Like border line Crazy Status! I find myself hitting on the most inappropriate men... Or Emotionally unavailable men... Or just plain just available men! Meaning theyre there and Im just gonna hit on them even if I dont find them attractive!...
I definitely need to slow my roll...
Take a breath... Count to 20... Or 100...
And most definitively STOP HITTING ON EVERYONE!!! I have Not hit on any attached men though all though for the amount of alcohol Ive consumed in the past month Im surprised I havent started hitting on girls too!
Uuuuugh!!!
I need to straighten my thoughts out... ✋ look and listen to my common sense... Listen to My inner voice... And stop listening to my crazy one...
What did i do today?
I actually got out of bed today... Thanks to Sheryll. We saw the bumble bee movie! ❤it ... We had lunch too... I love our girl outings.
I've been partying it up and mingling it up with new peeps.... But the problem with that is I tend crash from the social butterfly high... And that crash sucks big time... You see as a person with Anxiety I tend to over analyze... And reanalyze ... Until my brain hurts and I regret ever going out in the first place... Sounds exhausting huh? Well ... It is!!! Then I need another day or 2 to get myself "over it" ...
Jan 1st New Years day: Panic Attack!
I hadn't had a panic attack in a loooong time... Im glad it wasn't a big one... They suck! .. But there I was waiting on the gold line to take me to Pasadena when bam! Stupid anxiety... Youre ok... You're fine... Breath... I called Cindy... Talking to someone gives me comfort.. Helps me stop spiraling...
Other then the attack I had a pretty cool day helping out the Jaycees at the Rose Bowl. It was alot of fun despite spending all my time with complete strangers... Lol...
All in all I think Ive made awesome progress when it comes to my social anxieties... I did get a little anxious when I was told I'd be interacting with strangers but I gave myself a pep talk and I pulled through! I spoke to over 50 people that day... Was offered various alcoholic beverages and a jello shot... Lol...
All in all... It was a fun day... Lol
