I wish I was less of an introvert and more of an extrovert.
I wish I didn't care so much about others opinions.
I wish I wasnt so emphatetic.
I wish I had closer friends
I wish the friends I do have called more
i wishI had someone to talk to about my problems
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Three Christmas's
Hello JD
Havent been here in a lil while. It's Christmas today. :D Had a good day. Yesterday me and Charlie went to my Aunt's house for diner. It's our Christmas tradition. We all go to my aunts house for dinner then we open presents. We use to wait until midnight to open gifts, but over the years it's gotten earlier and earlier in the evening. Charlie met my aunts, uncles and cousins (not ALL of them-SOME- but the ones I see the most during the year) for the first time. He met my aunt Josefina and her husband Sergio and their munchkin Ricky; and my aunt Tina and her husband Pedro and their munchkin Leslie. My brother Chris came with his girlfriend Favi and Yaneth came with her Ex-boyfriend Chris... Nestor and Jorge remain unattached... lol. It was fun. My cousin Ricky got a new dog, lol, his name is Charlie. Charlie hears the word NO alot. . . the Dog too. LOL. He was definitely not friendly to my baby Marley. . . He's not friendly and their other dog Mateo is TOO friendly ;) ;) lol Poor Marley!
I got clothes, makeup, a mirror, a watch and some perfume from my family. I got Charlie the Star Wars DVD set in Blue Ray. When we left, Charlie made me open his presents to me (I'll talk about them later). I got the kids board games. I got Favi and Chris a gift set- bottle of Hypnotiq with ice bucket and glasses. I got Jorge the first season of 30 Rock. I got Nestor a gift card to Subway (He has an endless pit for a stomach) and I bought my aunts cooking stuff and my mom cookware. Oh I almost forgot, my mom got Charlie a towel. lol. (as long as I can remember we always would get things we NEEDED on Christmas and not so much what we wanted.) Jorge has been the only kid that's gotten everything he WANTED for Christmas.
Today we went to CHarlie's mom's for dinner and presents too. We we're all completely surprised that Casey's mom let him go with his dad today. Charlie still hadnt heard anything from her so he just dropped by at her mom's to pick him up. He said it was less painful then he thought it would be. I was very glad. They havent seen each other in a loooong time. :( I got him a Nerf gun and a Star Wars Encyclopedia and his grandma got him a bunch of stuff he enjoyed too. Me and Charlie got his mom a bread maker. Charlies mom spoiled me rotten :) It was lots of fun. . .
Our day wasnt over though. Ericka called and invited all of us to Sandra's for dinner. We played UNO and had a lovely dinner. I wish we could of stayed longer but Charlie had his gift exchange with his room mates today at 9. . . I, as you know, was not invited. Ericka gave me a very pretty necklace that reads "Best Friends, Now and Forever" <3 The card I got Ericka made her tear up, and then she made me tear up so I had to stop looking at her. LOL. We cant watch a sad movie together without us crying or making the other get sympathy tears. LOL. We also got her a piggy bank shaped like a shoe that said, "Savings for SHoes" and we plan to take her to Anime Con this coming up year, none of us have ever been, should be fun!
Anywhooo... MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!
Havent been here in a lil while. It's Christmas today. :D Had a good day. Yesterday me and Charlie went to my Aunt's house for diner. It's our Christmas tradition. We all go to my aunts house for dinner then we open presents. We use to wait until midnight to open gifts, but over the years it's gotten earlier and earlier in the evening. Charlie met my aunts, uncles and cousins (not ALL of them-SOME- but the ones I see the most during the year) for the first time. He met my aunt Josefina and her husband Sergio and their munchkin Ricky; and my aunt Tina and her husband Pedro and their munchkin Leslie. My brother Chris came with his girlfriend Favi and Yaneth came with her Ex-boyfriend Chris... Nestor and Jorge remain unattached... lol. It was fun. My cousin Ricky got a new dog, lol, his name is Charlie. Charlie hears the word NO alot. . . the Dog too. LOL. He was definitely not friendly to my baby Marley. . . He's not friendly and their other dog Mateo is TOO friendly ;) ;) lol Poor Marley!
I got clothes, makeup, a mirror, a watch and some perfume from my family. I got Charlie the Star Wars DVD set in Blue Ray. When we left, Charlie made me open his presents to me (I'll talk about them later). I got the kids board games. I got Favi and Chris a gift set- bottle of Hypnotiq with ice bucket and glasses. I got Jorge the first season of 30 Rock. I got Nestor a gift card to Subway (He has an endless pit for a stomach) and I bought my aunts cooking stuff and my mom cookware. Oh I almost forgot, my mom got Charlie a towel. lol. (as long as I can remember we always would get things we NEEDED on Christmas and not so much what we wanted.) Jorge has been the only kid that's gotten everything he WANTED for Christmas.
Our day wasnt over though. Ericka called and invited all of us to Sandra's for dinner. We played UNO and had a lovely dinner. I wish we could of stayed longer but Charlie had his gift exchange with his room mates today at 9. . . I, as you know, was not invited. Ericka gave me a very pretty necklace that reads "Best Friends, Now and Forever" <3 The card I got Ericka made her tear up, and then she made me tear up so I had to stop looking at her. LOL. We cant watch a sad movie together without us crying or making the other get sympathy tears. LOL. We also got her a piggy bank shaped like a shoe that said, "Savings for SHoes" and we plan to take her to Anime Con this coming up year, none of us have ever been, should be fun!
Anywhooo... MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Facebook, a place to mingle, to renew old friendships and start new ones, to keep in touch but not really. Facebook, the land of drama. Facebook, the time machine that allow us to travel back in time to our highschool days. For people to relive goodtimes, make new ones and talk about ourselves and others. Facebook a place to form new clicks and shun anew. Facebook the online water cooler, where everyone loves to gossip about everthing and anything! Facebook, it's like web cocaine. You cant help but get addicted.
Ex Friends
Ex-Friends
If you're wondering why she remains unnamed, well, I'm not all that sure. It's difficult for me to talk about her in person, and me writing about her on paper is easier somehow but I don't like to see her name. I deleted her off of my Facebook (and blocked her) after she finally returned my messages and I found out what she really thought about me. She told me to stay out of her life so I did... and I let someone else in it. <3 I don't know why but a religious phrase comes to mind. "God doesnt close a door without opening a window.
Why not when I heard mutual friends talking shit about me, you ask? Well, because like I said, I wanted to find out the facts from the source not secondary sources. It amazes me how high school-ish people are at my age. Starting rumors, hearing rumors, calling each other all kinds of names. If you hear something and actually want to know the entire truth just ask? They might lie you say? Well of course, that is a possibility but that makes you the adult and them someone who needs to grow up! If you actually consider the person a friend then I would think you would want to know the truth. . . and if they lie to your face, well that just proves they were never your friend to begin with.
If you're wondering why she remains unnamed, well, I'm not all that sure. It's difficult for me to talk about her in person, and me writing about her on paper is easier somehow but I don't like to see her name. I deleted her off of my Facebook (and blocked her) after she finally returned my messages and I found out what she really thought about me. She told me to stay out of her life so I did... and I let someone else in it. <3 I don't know why but a religious phrase comes to mind. "God doesnt close a door without opening a window.
Why not when I heard mutual friends talking shit about me, you ask? Well, because like I said, I wanted to find out the facts from the source not secondary sources. It amazes me how high school-ish people are at my age. Starting rumors, hearing rumors, calling each other all kinds of names. If you hear something and actually want to know the entire truth just ask? They might lie you say? Well of course, that is a possibility but that makes you the adult and them someone who needs to grow up! If you actually consider the person a friend then I would think you would want to know the truth. . . and if they lie to your face, well that just proves they were never your friend to begin with.
Little reminders...
I heart Charlie.
1. He makes me laugh.
2. He listens to me.
3. He thinks about our future.
4. He's handsome ;)
5. He love's me.
6. He tells me things I never knew before.
7. He puts up with my past baggage.
8. He stands up for me.
9. He holds my hand.
10. He tells me/shows me he loves me everyday.
... just to name a few... <3
I started this list a lil while ago but couldnt finish it... Now that I'm on a small break from school I can...
Charlie showed me something today... I swear, he's even more impatient then me! Lol. It made me smile... and think about the future. OUR future.
It's a good day. :)
1. He makes me laugh.
2. He listens to me.
3. He thinks about our future.
4. He's handsome ;)
5. He love's me.
6. He tells me things I never knew before.
7. He puts up with my past baggage.
8. He stands up for me.
9. He holds my hand.
10. He tells me/shows me he loves me everyday.
... just to name a few... <3
I started this list a lil while ago but couldnt finish it... Now that I'm on a small break from school I can...
Charlie showed me something today... I swear, he's even more impatient then me! Lol. It made me smile... and think about the future. OUR future.
It's a good day. :)
I Love Him...
I heart Charlie.
1. He makes me laugh.
2. He listens to me.
3. He thinks about our future.
4. He's handsome ;)
5. He love's me.
6. He tells me things I never knew before.
7. He puts up with my past baggage.
8. He stands up for me.
9. He holds my hand.
10. He tells me/shows me he loves me everyday.
... just to name a few... <3
1. He makes me laugh.
2. He listens to me.
3. He thinks about our future.
4. He's handsome ;)
5. He love's me.
6. He tells me things I never knew before.
7. He puts up with my past baggage.
8. He stands up for me.
9. He holds my hand.
10. He tells me/shows me he loves me everyday.
... just to name a few... <3
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Angry...
I know anger is a secondary emotion and not one I like sharing about all that much... but here I am. THinking. . .Thinking about why I've been so angry....cranky, irritable and perhaps a little mean lately. Sadly since Charlie's the only one I'm around mainly he's been taking some of that anger. Lately things he says or does just set me off in a bad mood. . . most of the time it's stupid little things I shouldn't really be upset by but there it is... Perhaps some of it is aimed at him for certain things right now- and we briefly talked about it during our last trip to Lucky Baldwins, which for some odd reason we ended up sleeping in his car the entire night, brrrr!- but I'm sure it's not all on those issues.
I need to wake up early (only two weeks left til this semester is over!) :( so I'll summarize once more and hopefully elaborate on these issues later:
1. I want to leave this house.
2. I miss my friends.
3. I want me and Charlie to have mutual friends but the way Charlie's acting it doesn't seem like that's gonna happen. - hopefully Ericka doesn't mind being the only friend that hangs out with us. lol. Sad day.
4. Charlie told me again what Maria said about me and then added what she and his ex girlfriend would do together to "bond" (drink, hang out and of course bad mouth another mutual friend- who I happen to know)- which just renews my dislike of the female species and my intense anxiety on trying to make new female friends-
5. Stressed about finals and school in general, looks like I might not be able to take any winter classes Tomorrow is finally my turn to register for the next semester but All the classes are pretty much full.
6. The future. mine. charlies. mine and charlies.
7. Something a lil more personal so I think I'll share that in my old fashioned hand written journal Charlie bought me. ( he commented on how I haven't written in it lately) I still have yet to tell anyone about this online journal. . .( all though I have a sneaking suspicion nosey-mc-nosington does know about it) hmmmm....
I gotta go ... The natives are here.... and getting restless....
Sweet Dreams...
I need to wake up early (only two weeks left til this semester is over!) :( so I'll summarize once more and hopefully elaborate on these issues later:
1. I want to leave this house.
2. I miss my friends.
3. I want me and Charlie to have mutual friends but the way Charlie's acting it doesn't seem like that's gonna happen. - hopefully Ericka doesn't mind being the only friend that hangs out with us. lol. Sad day.
4. Charlie told me again what Maria said about me and then added what she and his ex girlfriend would do together to "bond" (drink, hang out and of course bad mouth another mutual friend- who I happen to know)- which just renews my dislike of the female species and my intense anxiety on trying to make new female friends-
5. Stressed about finals and school in general, looks like I might not be able to take any winter classes Tomorrow is finally my turn to register for the next semester but All the classes are pretty much full.
6. The future. mine. charlies. mine and charlies.
7. Something a lil more personal so I think I'll share that in my old fashioned hand written journal Charlie bought me. ( he commented on how I haven't written in it lately) I still have yet to tell anyone about this online journal. . .( all though I have a sneaking suspicion nosey-mc-nosington does know about it) hmmmm....
I gotta go ... The natives are here.... and getting restless....
Sweet Dreams...
Friday, December 2, 2011
The one about Liz staying up all night...
These last couple of days have been hectic and time consuming. I've been working on my final projects for all my classes... It's too late to get in a decent a rest or even nap so here I am fighting to stay awake until class starts. Its almost 6am and class starts at 8 am. Hopefully I'll get in some sleep after class, I go into work at 6 pm. Wah! Wah! I think I'll jump in the shower, have some breakfast (something I rarely do), and get my science project stuff ready for class.... but first, since I have some time to spare :) I will summarize the current shinanigans and thoughts.
Numero uno: I told Charlie I want to move out! Now!
Numero Dos: Maria (Charlie's land lady, and I guess Ex Friend now) gave him until Feb. 1st to move out. - Rather nice of her to wait til AFTER the holidays. Oh and she rescinded her invitation to me AGAIN, so once again I am not even allowed on her property.- and unless I ask her directly (and even then I'm doubtful I'll get an honest answer) I will never know exactly why she does not like me. I met her at JB's birthday party alooong time ago, I went with both Chris's and Autumn. (Charlie wasn't there, I don't think he lived with them yet. I had no idea she even knew Charlie- This is definitely a small world!)
Numero Tres: Im debating between taking winter session classes or just working... until Spring semester that is.
Numero Quatro: Charlie's baby mama drama continues. Poor Charlie, he hasn't seen his kid in awhile. . . and to top it all off after ignoring all his messages about seeing his son she recently messages him, just to yell at him and call him names... You tell me what you call a person who keeps their children from another parent???... anywhooo...
Numero Cinco: Been thinking about what Ericka said, which reminds me I almost cried in front of her while I was "sharing". Her and Charlie actually. This whole talking about stuff that makes me mad or sad always brings tears to my eyes, I had to change the subject otherwise I would of lost it..
hmmm.... anywhoo... I must go, TTYL!
Numero uno: I told Charlie I want to move out! Now!
Numero Dos: Maria (Charlie's land lady, and I guess Ex Friend now) gave him until Feb. 1st to move out. - Rather nice of her to wait til AFTER the holidays. Oh and she rescinded her invitation to me AGAIN, so once again I am not even allowed on her property.- and unless I ask her directly (and even then I'm doubtful I'll get an honest answer) I will never know exactly why she does not like me. I met her at JB's birthday party alooong time ago, I went with both Chris's and Autumn. (Charlie wasn't there, I don't think he lived with them yet. I had no idea she even knew Charlie- This is definitely a small world!)
Numero Tres: Im debating between taking winter session classes or just working... until Spring semester that is.
Numero Quatro: Charlie's baby mama drama continues. Poor Charlie, he hasn't seen his kid in awhile. . . and to top it all off after ignoring all his messages about seeing his son she recently messages him, just to yell at him and call him names... You tell me what you call a person who keeps their children from another parent???... anywhooo...
Numero Cinco: Been thinking about what Ericka said, which reminds me I almost cried in front of her while I was "sharing". Her and Charlie actually. This whole talking about stuff that makes me mad or sad always brings tears to my eyes, I had to change the subject otherwise I would of lost it..
hmmm.... anywhoo... I must go, TTYL!
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